Lately my focus has been pulled away from social media and into two seemingly contrasting inner worlds.
On the one hand, I've been going through a really emotionally intense time that started in December. My energy shifted in the weeks leading up to my Mom's birthday (2nd without her), with her appearing in my dreams more often, many flashbacks from her illness, and frequent signs that her energy is ever present. It was...intense...and not easy to navigate, especially amidst the daily responsibilities of being a Mother and homemaker, among other roles.
On the other hand, in the same time period, some big dreams I have had for several years have shifted very quickly from dreams to visions and plans. Suddenly I am effortlessly meeting other people who share the same dreams and who are driven to envision them together and develop plans to make them real. These are the same dreams my Mom and I spent hours talking about and painting into visions. 💖
A few days ago I realised these two experiences - the weight of this heavy emotional time and the buoyancy of dreams in the pipeline - are fully interconnected. They are the yin and yang of life, the dance between light and dark, between being pulled backward and propelled forward. It is so easy to want just the feel-good emotions and to resist the wtf-this-sucks ones.
But together they provide depth, richness and balance to life, even if it doesn't feel that way in the thick of it. And it is no accident that one of the things I miss the most about my Mom - our endless brainstorming sessions of business ideas and life dreams and plans - is now coming back into my life at this time, in the form of making possible the dreams she and I envisioned right up until she died.
Thank you, Universe, for all of it. .
Michelle Borner, a mom on 23 missions, blogs about her Deep Thoughts on a wide range of topics from parenting to conscious living to lessons from brain cancer.
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